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The beginning of depression
| 作者：SOHO特区网
-上传日期：2021-8-17 |
The beginning of depression
When Yoshiko was 21 years old, she graduated from a certain university. With a beautiful appearance and elegant temperament, she quickly found a secretarial job that seemed to suit her. However, after only half a year at work, she changed several stores like a breeze. It's not that she sees that mountain is high, but because of one reason: she can't stand the sexual harassment in the work unit. She decided not to be anyone's employee anymore, renting a private house in the suburbs, determined to be a freelance writer who is not at the mercy of anyone.
However, I really wanted to use writing as a means of earning a living. After a few days of excitement, Yoshiko began to feel at a loss again. She began to want to write a book, but one had no material, two had no fame, and three did not know anyone in the publishing house, and some plots that she had conceived usually disappeared when she wrote. So, she still looked for writing some small essays about love and affection, which was her strong point when she was studying in school, and she won't know how many awards she won in the essay competition. But after all, the essays she wrote while studying cannot be compared with the articles that she wanted to sell for money. She voted for 10 articles, ranging from "China Youth Daily" to municipal industry newspapers. In the end, only a TV newspaper with a small circulation in the city used her. A 600-word article was sent with 20 yuan.
Later, I heard from my classmates that the most popular documentary story now is the documentary story. It is said that the documentary manuscript in the "Military Friend" magazine has a thousand characters and a thousand dollars. PEN. Yoshiko was moved again. She spent dozens of yuan to buy a large stack of various documentary magazines and lay on the bed to study for several days and nights, her eyes were sore, and her dreams at night were also line of words in her mind. After she thought she was familiar with the style and characteristics of documentary magazines and documentary stories, she had to bring up a pen to write, and she was worried again. What should I write? In this rental house, the front door is not open every day, and the second door is not open. She is afraid that she will encounter the exciting and strange material in the magazine in her life. One night, after watching a soap opera on the black-and-white TV set on the bedside, she had a flash of inspiration in her mind, and she wrote an eloquent "A "Miss Escort" and Three White-collar Men" with her pen. , Is basically adapted from the plot of that soap opera. After she finished writing, she was so excited, as if she saw her manuscript turned into a wad of banknotes. She impatiently put a stamp on it and mailed it, but there was no news. To this day, Yoshiko still imagined that this manuscript would suddenly appear in the magazine.
Soon, Yoshiko found a boyfriend. Her boyfriend neither agrees nor disagrees with her staying in a rented house full-time writing. He works as a business manager in a company with good efficiency, and has to come back at most once a month. After coming back, apart from having a good relationship with her who had been reunited for a long time, she brought her a lot of dirty clothes and one month's living expenses. Yoshiko wrote to her family that she was working in a newspaper and had no problems with her life, but the truth was that she felt like a canary kept by her boyfriend. She knew that her boyfriend had always loved her deeply. It was only when she thought of this that she felt that she and her boyfriend were equal and depended on each other in this city.
With the financial support of her boyfriend, Yoshiko wants to do a great job in writing, but in many cases, planning is one thing, reality is another, loneliness and emptiness still surround her. Fangzi is accustomed to being a "night owl", and basically wakes up at 10 o'clock in the morning every day. After washing up, she just wants to touch the pen. She looks at the watch at 11 o'clock. Let's open the afternoon after lunch. When a man was cooking lunch, he couldn't help turning on the TV again. When the three-episode series ended, the bowls on the dinner table were already dry, and the clock slipped to 4:30 in the afternoon. Rubbing his sleepy eyes and pulling the quilt on the bed, Fangzi would normally not be able to wake up until eight o'clock in the evening. After waking up, I washed the pot, washed the dishes, made dinner, cleaned up, and almost played the second episode of the prime time TV series. When Yoshiko finished watching all the good-looking TV series with a guilty mood, turned off the TV and turned on the lamp to spread the paper and pick up the pen, there was nothing in her mind. Write what? how to write? Yoshiko felt a kind of helplessness in loneliness. Several midnights, she locked the door, drew the curtains, and took herself naked, and then started from her toes with a pen, and silently wrote three hundred Tang poems on her skin. Once she accidentally punctured her skin and saw the blood in the wound slowly staining the writing red, she would feel that this was a punishment for her laziness and emptiness.
Yoshiko misses home very much, but she never goes home except for Chinese New Year, and occasionally she writes good things to her mother to tell her that she is safe. One winter, she stayed up until the middle of the night and was terribly thirsty, but there was no drop of boiling water in the thermos. So she gnawed an apple indiscriminately and fell asleep in a daze. As a result, the stomach and intestines were damaged by eating. By daybreak, she had diarrhea and she had no energy to get up. So for several days, she was lying on the bed half-awake and half-conscious, listening to the laughter and chatting of the adults and children next door, thinking of her empty and lonely life, tears fell like rain, as if she had really become An outcast in the world.
Finally, the chance for Yoshiko's fate to turn around came. One day, her boyfriend came back from a business trip and told her that their company had suddenly come to a shivering rural girl. It turned out that she had escaped from her husband’s family unbearably tortured. Her previous situation was very miserable. "I'm going to interview her! I must write decent things, I can't keep you up forever!" Fangzi shouted to her boyfriend, and her gentleness suddenly became so strong. Her boyfriend had no choice but to take her to the company and let her live in the female workers' dormitory. After many twists and turns, Fangzi found the rural girl, listened to her tearful marriage, and saw her bruised and bruised body by her husband's family. A strong sense of sympathy and mission impacted Fangzi. She asked her boyfriend to help the girl find a lawyer, and she helped her write a lawsuit. In the end, the court decided that the girl received compensation and freedom. Yoshiko hurriedly wrote the documentary manuscript of "The girl who escaped marriage, your destiny is in my own hands". The article hit the documentary magazine and gave Yoshiko a lot of confidence. After she got acquainted with the female workers in the dormitory, she found some materials from their lives. She wrote some of these materials as documentaries and some as novels, and after casting them out, she published a lot of them one after another. Counting the bills of manuscripts that kept flying in, Yoshiko knew that the depressing period of freelance writing had passed, and his life was rich and colorful. As long as he had the heart, he could be a happy and fulfilling SOHO clan.
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